6-11-09 – Drake… quote on deciding when you have to fight – been there, done that

You cannot run away from a weakness; you must some time fight it out or perish; and if that be so, why not now, and where you stand.  …Robert Louis Stevenson (1850-1894), “The Amateur Emigrant”

 

 

See, this quote is not just about fighting for honor to me.  its also about choosing to fight despite debilitating/fatal illness, pain, complications that statisticfally most withj our disease would’ve already died from long ago…

 

to live another day so as to have possibly -just maybe – a chance on that given day to make a memory with someone or to make a difference in someone’s life.    

 

*

 

When I’m dead, I hope its said about me, not only what sharon wants so bad – that she tried – but I want it said about me that I stood on  my honor, and my existence made a positive difference somewhere – just somewhere, to someone. If that happens, my life will have been worth it. 

 

Sharon also says she feels her life will be worth it if people remember more good than bad about her.  or maybe i said that.  oh hell somebody here said it, but i agree with that.

 

and trust me dude, i’ve long ago discovered I think that there are times when you have to have faith or your just screwed.  and there are times when that faith comes in to play when you look around you and realize dude I’m gonna have to fight or perish right here where I stand.

*

 

And just for the hell of it because its a good quote but I’m not sure I believe it…

 

There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning.   …Louis L’Amour (1908-1988)

 

*

 

I thought about this particular qoute for a few minjutes adfter clicking send and was stricken suddenly with you know what?  i think i do believe this. 

 

when I lost my second family, not only me but i thinkn everybody inside and out who knew me thought that was it, i was finished.  everybody but Jess, the true Jewel.  She NEVER ONE TIME  for one secfond of one day gave up on me, and now I (well ok we actyually in a literal sense) owe my life to her. 

A J destroyed me…

another J brought me back for a new beginning – AND lengthened our life here at home by mopving here to take care of us - so far over a year now and counting – with chances to make memories with our loved ones. 

D