6-28-09… lisa – tragedy so profound it is the only thing to ever compare in depth to the death of our son
in this end-stage of our life, on intensive home palliative care in a few’s attempts to allow us to die at home as we so desperately wish, we are faced with a tragedy so profound that it compares only to the loss of our son shortly afer b irth. we have never compared anything to that depth, not even the loss of our infant grandson 1 1/2 days before his adoption was final.
now it remains to be seen i suppose just how tough are we? is there still enough left in us to pull it together to get through, and deal with this forever for the rest of our life? i dont know yet. i don’t know. our overall will to live has already been waning for some time over things such as just flat-out exhaustion of fighting devastating debilitating illness to live longer and the constant constant overwhelming pain even on a fentanyl pain patch.
if anybody reads this and is a praying person please pray - not for us but for the few who still love and want/need us no matter our physical and deterioriating overall condition that we can survive and deal with this for whats left of our life for them
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